I should have known
I should have known that getting older would bring wisdom. I guess it just didn’t quite manifest in the way I thought it would, so I never saw it coming. People a lot younger than me are still better at putting so much of it into words though.
I should have known that she’d dump me. I’m a mess. Perhaps less of a mess than I was at her age though, but more self aware. Well, aware of all my flaws but not of my needs. That didn’t help really.
I should have known that it would be out of the frying pan into the fire. The decision is made now though, so there’s no turning back. That salary won’t magically find its way back into my bank account, no matter how much I pine for it and lament my poor decision making. Time to make the best of the situation.
I should have known that he wouldn’t message me back. He rarely does. Is it possible to maintain a friendship when you hardly ever get to talk? I guess I’ll find out.
But most of all… I should have fucking known that starting this blog again would result in writers block.